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SAJAK – Seorang Sufi Yang Menangis Di Tepi Perigi

Nota: Saya terjumpa sajak ini di salah satu yahoo forum. Semua kredit kpd penyajak seperti nama di bawah.


Seorang Sufi Yang Menangis Di Tepi Perigi

Seorang sufi menangis di tepi perigi yang telah kering
Air mata tidak bisa kering di pipi
Matanya dihunjamkan pada dunia yang parah
Ternyata air mata sufi tidak bisa merubah dunia
Tidak ada karomah pada satu kolah air mata
Apalah ertinya untaian tasbih di jari jemari yang longlai
Tidak ada sirna
Tidak ketemu yang fana
Dunia tidak mengambil pusing
Apakah doanya akan sampai ke sidratulmuntaha
Inilah sebuah melankolia mimpi siang
Sesedih al Hambra di Andalusia
Apakah sejarah akan berulang
Sebuah kebangkitan
Mukadimah dan bidayatil bidayah mula menyerlah
Al Mahdi dan Al Maseh sudang kian hampir
Qad iqtarabatissaah
Benarlah kiamat kian hampir
Para wali sedang bikin kerja
Yang tak terjamah mata
Kerana semua manusia dibutakan terhijab pandangan
mana mungkin “inkisyafah” terungkai.

Ramli Abdul Rahim

23 April 2002

Mr Kamarudeen from Yangon

He repeated Surah Fatihah after me.

“I used to recite Quran when I was small.” He said.

People called him U  Soo Thein or Mr Soo Thein. In fact that is his formal Burmese name.  His moslem name is Kamarudeen. He was born Moslem some 60 years ago, but the bad news is that he is a practising Buddhist now. And that is a very bad news to me. Very troubling one.

He is an old man, small and skinny, with balding head. Nothing special about him. Nothing noticeable about him.  He eats bettle nuts like other Myanmar.

“Tell me more”, I wanted to know more from this mysterious man.

He started to tell me his story which started 60 years ago. His late father was a Pakistani, who served as a cook for a British Colonel by the name Captain Nizamudeen. British Army invaded Burma in 1945 and his father was part of the raiding party. He met a local girl — her mother from the Shan State –, fell in love, converted to Islam and they married and settled down in Rangoon. Kamarudeen was born years later and the father died when he was small. The mother — with no support and network — reverted back to Buddhism and raised him up as Buddhist. That was his early life, as much as he could remember.

He knew his father hailed from a village in Punjab in northern Pakistan. He didn’t know the exact address. He has never been there his entire life. And he always wanted to go there, and the desire to go there kept growing, more and more every year.  His wish before he died.

Now he has his own family to take care of. A Buddhist wife. Four children — 2 sons and 2 daughters — the youngest in Grade 10. All Buddhist.

I don’t know how to help him. With not much information, nothing much I could do.  But that is not the priority. The prority now is how to make him a Moslem again. I could only give him a simple advice.

“Whenever you feel bad or sick, just say Lailla ha illallah Muhammad Rasulullah“.

Deep in me, I want him to die a Moslem.  Even though I knew hidayah is not my business.

“That kalimah will save you.”

“We need 70000 kyats to settle the bills”

Agak lama saya tak solat berjemaah di masjid  Kokhine  yang terletak di  Kabaye Pagoda Rd di kota Yangon.  Pada hari cuti umum Independence Day pada Januari 4, 2010,  aku berkesempatan mencuri waktu seketika. Setibanya di perkarangan masjid, aku melihat Brother Ahmad duduk di depan pintu masuk utama sambil memegang sebatang pen dan sebuah buku nota lama. Wajahnya berubah gembira melihat saya dan Haji Safarizal turun dari kereta.

“Long time no see. Where have you been?” Sapanya dalam bahasa bisnes. Dia memang fasih dalam Bahasa Inggeris.

“Holidaying in Malaysia. Visiting relatives. Attending weddings.”

Dia bertanya seolah-olah ada hajat besar terbuku dihatinya yang perlu dikongsi dengan seseorang. Dia menunjukkan buku akaun masjid dan kemudian membawa saya ke papan kenyataan masjid yang merekodkan jumlah kutipan derma orang ramai yang diterima setiap hari Jumaat. Pada Jumaat 1/1/2010 sumbangan derma hanya 16000 kyats. (=USD16).  Terlalu kecil dan salah satu sebab ialah cuti hujung tahun 2009 dan cuti tahun baru 2010. Tak ramai expatriates di waktu itu. Jadi derma berkurangan. Masjid Kokhine walaupun saiznya tidak besar, dipasang dengan beberapa unit penyaman udara jenis split. Saya tidak hairan jika bil eletrik tinggi setiap bulan. Rumah-rumah kotak yang terletak di bahagian belakang masjid yang menempatkan petugas masjid dan keluarga mereka juga menggunakan sumber eletrik yang sama. Saya difahamkan mereka dari satu keluarga yang besar dan memegang amanah mengurus masjid ini dari generasi ke generasi. Mereka hidup susah, hanya menumpang derma kepada masjid dan gaji yang tak seberapa dari kerja yang tidak menentu. Walaupun susah, raut wajah mereka gembira.  Yunus, anak saudara Brother Ahmad bekerja sebagai mekanik kereta. Mempunyai 2 orang anak kecil peringkat sekolah rendah (elementary school) yang peramah dan periang, yang selalu berlari dan bermain di tepi jalan yang sibuk. Dia akan offer makanan ringan atau apa saja yang sedang dimakannya setiap aku melihat aku datang ke masjid.  Innocent faces of children of Myanmar.

“We have cash problem brother. We need about Ks70000 to settle the bills.” Bro Ahmad merayu.

Dia memulakan ceritanya. Gaji imam pertama Mulavi Ibrahim ialah 70000 kyats (=USD30) yang bertugas untuk waktu Asar, Maghrib dan Isyak. Gaji imam ke2 hanyalah 30000 (=USD30) yang bertugas pada waktu Fajar dan Zuhur. Ibrahim mempunyai sebuah kedai makan sempit kurang dari 10 kaki lebar disebelah masjid. Tiada makanan panas yang istimewa hanyalah makanan ringan dan minuman sahaja. Ada satu hari aku singgah di kedainya sementara menunggu pemandu dari pejabat datang dan memesan mee goreng. Aku mengharapkan sesuatu yang indah seperti mee goreng mamak, tetapi yang sampai hanyalah mee segera yang di rendam air panas dan digoreng kering dengan perasa dalam pek yang sama.  Tersangatlah masin. Tetapi ada juga telur goreng mata kerbau disertakannya. No komen. Aku dihidangkan dengan kopi segera 3-dalam-1.  Minuman seperti ini sangat popular di Myanmar. Mikko, Super, Rich, Gold Roast antara jenama terkenal di sini. Hampir setiap bulan ada saja jenama baru yang keluar di pasaran.

Balik ke rumah, selepas perbincangan ringkas dengan beberapa orang sahabat, kami berjaya membuat kutipan derma kilat. Seminggu kemudian saya berjumpanya lagi. Bro Ahmad terharu.

“Malaysian brothers good. I make doa for you all.”

“I make doa for you. I make doa for you.” Dia mengulang-ulang ayat yang sama beberapa kali tanda gembira tak terhingga.

“Yeah doa is all what we need.” Saya berbisik sendirian.

Updating antivirus software on Myanmar National Day

11 November 2009:

Today is a public holiday in Myanmar.

This is my first time celebrating Myanmar National Day. Whats so special about this day? National Day stems from Dec. 5, 1920 when students of Yangon University staged a strike protesting new regulations set by education authorities of then British government.  The strike spread to all high schools in the country. The British then changed the regulations.  This student rebellion  inspired Myanmar’s independence movement.  You see students or I prefer to call them ‘educated teenagers’ are very powerful group of people in any society or organzation. They are change agents. They are many. They have info. Therefore they are powerful. Similar like Taliban movement in Afghanistan and Pakistan. The root word is Arabic Tholibun which means a person who seeks out knowledge.

Imternational School of Yangon is business as usual today. Americans do not respect most of local holidays. They created their own rules even when they are at other people’s country, just like what happened in Iraq or other places they have invaded.  Let us not talk about Americans in this posting, not my intention anyway.

So the house is quiet without kids. Ummi is at swimmimg pool with her friends. I heard they had good time lately, swimmimg for health, covering 30 lapses everyday. So I was left alone at home today. I am supposed to meet Ustaz Rashid to hand over korbani money but he called yesterday that he is busy today. I should have planned a trip to visit my friend’s hometown near Pathein to survey korbani area but I did not.

Myanmar is heaven for IT-inclined in particular gamers and software developers. You could find the latest games, movies or latest software versions, sold in CD or DVD format by street paddlers at incredibly rock bottom price. A DVD with about 60 war movies is available at 1500 kyats (=USD 1.5).  The other day I got myself a CD containing all world best-selling antivirus software for 650kyats. And hello my friends, they are not limited trial copies. It was so surreal that it came complete with license code valid for 66 years. I did not know how they managed to crack this code. I am wondering how Mr Kaspersky or Dr  Norton or Mr Gates be able to sell their original softwares in this country. You cannot blame Myanmar people. They simply cannot afford it.  An original Vista or XP is equivalent to 2-3  months salary of a policeman. We heard an old adage  “great inventions are created out of necessity”, and that statement is very true in Myanmar. This military-run country is under economic sanctions by US and UN. They don’t have many imported goods on CityMart’s shelves. They have to find ways to survive. They must make do with bare essentials that they have so that they can can continue to eat, dress, communicate and travel. You still can find a 30-year old car Mazda 808 or 20-year old Toyota KE on the city road. And I traveled in them sometimes.

An antivirus software valid for 66 years

An antivirus software valid for 66 years

You may label Myanmar a land of contrabands or counterfeits (thats what Lonely Planets said, and even they have a special chapter on their Myanmar travel guide book, whether or not to visit Myanmar), but I beg to disagree. I call it survival and innovation. A tribute to all innovative and creative people in Myanmar, from motor mechanics to software developers, who help run this country, in some way.

Self-esteem — another view

This two-word noun is often heard again and again in a corporate life. Corporate world is for individual with high self-esteem. Bosses send their staff to enhance their self-esteem. We are required to enhance our self-esteem. Yet there are people suffering from the low self-esteem.

So what is this self-esteem all about?

It is the value you assign to your self. It is about your worth as a person or human being. Society we live in assign different values to different people based on their status. They treat some as “somebody” and others as “nobody.” Why this thing happens? To them to be a “somebody” requires a good job,  above 2.0 cc car, a particular skill, even connections to other “somebody”. In short you need tons of money to be a “somebody”. Their self-worth is tied to what they DO, what they HAVE, not who they are. They are not human BEINGS. They’ve become human HAVINGS, and human DOINGS.

A person’s self-esteem must always be 100% because we are humans.  What we have and what we do cannot guarantee happiness. We can pretend to be happy for a while but deep inside we are suffering because we cannot accept who we are. We are not in harmony with our self.

A LESSON OR TWO:

“Accept our self as a human being, not human having nor human doings”.

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